Monday, July 26, 2010

A Moment Like This

Happy Monday everyone!
Well, it has been an interesting week plus, to say the least. I don't think I have been under this much stress and emotional turmoil in a long time. I. Am. Exhausted.

Last week was just a big ol cluster of too many things happening at once. By the end of the week, I was crying at the drop of a hat and about to lose my mind. Though things are working out, I am still grinding my teeth at night and having weird dreams. Though, last night I slept like a rock.  When I woke up this morning, I felt awful; like I'd been hit by a truck.

The CRV drama has just become absurd.  The repair we needed to make ended up costing us $350. We had to replace 2 tires instead of 1 like we thought, and that was another $200. Plus, Hubby got a speeding ticket on the way back from the mechanic, and just to file with the court so he can take defensive driving is over $100. Plus, plus - when the tire place changed out the tires, something that was only slightly messed up with the suspension is now really messed up, and the front end of the car looks like a low rider. GAH! Oh yes, and just for grins, the driver's side door lock broke this morning.

So, close to a GRAND later we may have a semi functional car that we will most likely promptly sell. We can't afford this AT ALL.

Hubby's camera is messed up and needs to be sent to Nikon for repairs. Our 50mm lens is messed up and needs to be either sent somewhere for repair or replaced.

There is sooooo much more - but I am just too exhausted to talk about it all.

I really, really, really, really need a break. I am so looking forward to our family vacation coming soon. I can't wait for the boys to be occupied with the family and leave me alone for a while. I know that sounds horrible, but I am so incredibly tired of being climbed on and whined to and demanded all day every day. I want to just go somewhere ALONE and be able to hear myself, hear my own thoughts, hear nature, ANYTHING.

So, because I am tired of whining and complaining, here is some goodness. My bff came to visit on Saturday and it was sooo incredibly wonderful.  I was so encouraged by her visit that I wrote a series of status messages about happiness. Before they get lost in the Facebook abyss, I thought I would jot them down here, and maybe add a few more.

Happiness Is:
1.watching your baby play the tickle game with your bff. And he is the one crawling his fingers across the pillow to get her. :) ♥ ♥
2.spending the entire afternoon with someone you haven't seen in forever, and not having that awkward period at the beginning where you feel the need to make small talk. Picking up right where you left off as if the last time you sat down together was just yesterday.
3.watching your bff's kid and yours walk through the house, holding hands. ♥ ♥
4.having a friend that lets you laugh and cry and spill your guts, and still knows exactly what to say that doesn't make you feel like an idiot.
5.seeing God's perfect timing when He not only places the one person who understands in your life, but also on your doorstep on a day you need her most.
6. listening to the outrageous giggles of your children as they wrestle with their father. And better still, jumping in the middle of the dog pile with them. 
7. listening to the sound of my Hubby's heart beat. 


If you have little nuggets of happiness to share, I would love to read them. Just leave me a comment here on the blog and let us all know what defines your happiness.


Until,
D :)



3 comments:

Julia said...

Happiness is the moment that you realize amidst the chaos of it all that in the grand scheme of things, this is just a small blip in a lifetime.

You'll be ok, Dawn. *hugs*

Victoria said...

I can empathize so much with needing that little slice of time *alone* ... as much joy and happiness children inject into our lives, they seem to have an inborn knack for finding that last little shred of sanity and whining it into submission :)

Wishing you some Zen and a few breaks.

Barb said...

Happiness is relaxing a bit and realizing that they are just little kids after all...prone to mistakes just like us. Enjoy them even in the midst of chaos.

Hugs to you Dawn and much love.