Someday Soon

I suppose I should give a pregnancy update.

Well, I am just past 35 weeks. I have about a month to go. I am seriously hoping this baby comes early, though I still have tons to do - so maybe not.

I am actually pretty comfortable in my skin; I don't feel overly huge or cumbersome. I can't really bend over much, that is terribly uncomfortable. I have good balance, and my legs are still strong enough that I am not afraid of getting stuck on the toilet! lol! (that was a problem with Kiddo; I was so heavy toward the end that I couldn't lift myself up!) But I am waddling, and when I sit down the belly rests on top of my thighs.

The only real discomfort I have right now is with the skin on my belly. It is stretched so tight right over my belly button that it burns most of the time. I have been putting oil on it several times a day just to get some relief. Kiddo is really great at rubbing oil on my belly. lol! He's a good helper. ;) So I guess you can tell where all my stretch marks are going to be...yup, I have a sort of Budweiser crown pattern growing over my belly button. ugh.

I have had a few contractions here and there; mostly in the night. They have been enough to wake me and make me take notice. A couple of times I have had to concentrate on relaxing and breathing. I am wondering when my next physical exam will be and if I am dialated at all. I have a regular OB appointment this week and then start the weekly visits next week.

I haven't seemed to gain any weight in the past two weeks. yay!

I think pregnancy constipation is God's way of preparing us for labor and pushing...

I am easily suggestible when it comes to food right now. EX: I was on the phone with a friend and she was ordering crunchy tacos from Taco Bell. Just meat, cheese and sour cream. I cannot get them out of my head. Later I read a blog and my preggo friend said she couldn't get enough of burgers and milk shakes. I then saw a picture of a milk shake and absolutely had to have one. Last night I saw a Target ad and there was a picture of a jar of peanut butter, a loaf of bread and some Goldfish crackers. Guess what I ate as a midnight snack?

Somebody suggest a salad please!!!

An interesting factoid about my pregnancy - I haven't gotten the Linea Nigra this time around. With the Kiddo, it extended all the way up to my rib cage and lasted for a month or so after I gave birth. This time, nothing.

I still have unbelievable heartburn, but thankfully now it comes and goes more often. Last night I shot straight up out of bed at about 3AM because I got a mouth full of acid. yuck.

I think Kiddo is ready for the baby to be here. He keeps asking me to go to the doctor so he can take him out. He wants the baby to come out so mommy can work out with him. I have several DVDs; Pilate's, post natal yoga, etc. and Kiddo wants me to work out with him when he watches them. I keep telling him I can't until after the baby comes. Yes, Kiddo watches work out DVDs. Frequently. And he actually does the exercises most of the time. It is hilarious!

I can't believe that in a few short weeks the baby will be here. I am so ready and so not ready all at the same time. I am starting to mourn in that this may very well be the last time I am able to experience this. I am sad that I may never again feel a little being kick and move and breathe inside me. I really do love being pregnant and experiencing all the new curves and things that happen to my body (well, except for the heartburn, stretchmarks and morning sickness). I love being able to bond with a child in a way that no one else can; the fact that I know him in a completely unique and special way for over nine months. For those nine plus months he is all mine.

It truly is an amazing journey, and I am sad for it to be ending. But, like any vacation or trip that we take, sometimes coming home is bittersweet. I am looking forward to having this little one in my arms and being able to see his sweet face and hear his cries.

Until,
D :)

"Someday Soon"
Wind will blow and the sun will shine.
On that hill where we used to climb.
I look in your eyes and you'll be mine.
Someday soon.
I won't even make a scene.
It will be just like a dream.
Cash is gonna flow down by the old mainstream.
Someday soon.
You don't know me, but I know you (you don't know me).
You have no idea what I do (what I do).
Make you mine and see you swoon.
Someday soon.
Sun's gonna shine, wind's gonna blow.
On the hill where we used to go.
I look in your eyes and down I will roll.
Someday soon.
Someday, someday soon.
Someday, someday soon.