Thinking Out Loud

I started this post on Wednesday when I was suddenly struck with the thought that I have some amazing friends. Now it is Thursday and I am stuck - at a loss for what to say, but still wanting to get my point across. I know that each and every one of my friends has been hand picked by God to be in my life. They are there for me when I need them, they are generous and thoughtful and kind. And though in many ways we are different, we still manage to find joy in each other's company.

I have been so blessed by their generosity. They have passed along their clothes, their unused baby formula, their diapers. They have hired me to do photo shoots and passed along job opportunities and kind words and encouragement. Some have lingered silently in the background and at just the right moment came forth with new adventures and opportunities - everything and anything I could possibly imagine that someone would need, my friends have provided in one way or another. I couldn't ask for bigger blessings; I couldn't ask for a better circle of friends.

I have come to realize that though I think relationships should go a certain way; that certain things should happen in order to consider people to be a big part of my life - well it's just not so. I don't have to spend all my time with someone for them to have major impact and importance. Some of my best friends I see less than once a year; some I see every few years, and some, even those that live close, I rarely see at all. And some, I have yet to meet in person!

This world is a strange, amazing, scary, exciting place. The impact we have on each other and our individual environments is so fascinating to me. And though at times I feel like the world may be crashing down around me, the truth is, I am fine. I am blessed. I am surrounded by those I love, and those who love me. And I hope that in some small way I can give back all that has been given to me. I hope that even though I have little means, I can find a way to pay forward all that I have been given and then some.

Because I do not deserve such kindness. Yet it pours forth and fills my soul.

Until,
D :)